PASS THE MARIJUANA.

The past few days havent been so good. crazy insidemoodswings.i think cos everything's a mess with toto not around. i feel kinda lost actually.. i think idjust die if she chose to go back to her village forever and become a nun.but its kinda hard for me to tell her i love her (and vice versa) so we'll just.. hahha, secretly love each other till the end i guess? yeah!

and ive been surviving on random sparks of brilliance throughout my day. but things are getting better definitely 8) just found kimberly's 1st Jan letter to me and i couldnt stop smiling! everything was just felt simple and nice again for a moment. ..ended up stoning at a spot for like a minute thinking bout the safest safest SAFEST place to keep the letter.couldnt think of one though:( so i just put the letter on my dressing table and put a calculator on it.

and today she told me how all my entries seem to be an.. outburst of how much---. And frankly i feel kinda embarrassed..haha..MONICA, THIS HAS GOT TO STOP >=[