pretense.

Went to tj idol with cheresa. Love her all over 8). maybe she's not so chatty anymore but its okay cos at least now she's so much more like the old old cheresa. "HELLO CHESA!" and why do girls like to screw up their faces in photos. frankly i think its kinda cheesy. but its so hard when you've got no one to hold the cam for you and your hand's only THAT LONG. i think i'll be cheesy 4EVa.

i feel so scared bout how things are gonna work out. everything feels like its at the THRESHOLD.. it's like standing at the edge of the world.. but less adrenaline. (and bigger eyebags)

and its weird how despite my mind being so packed, i still have space for shittyweewee things that knot me up inside a little, still.

so go away you stupid feeling..

i wanna stop feeling like saying I m y.