BIG GULP is my godsend.

My determination failed me yet again.

wasnt supposed to go to sentosa but yi en just had to ask "eh! can get rugby ball?" and my wall of resolution CRUMBLED! $881$*@#&. in the end we didnt play touch just volleyball for 4 hrs. HOT.

so i ended up going to the beach looking FREAKIN NOOB. pple wearing bikinis, tanks, shortshorts looking all hot and monicatan wearing her hwa chong pe attire with track shoes looking even hotter. i was like a bloody traffic light la with my green bag.

Oh we saw the how-can-anyone-be-so-hot hot teri tan and her almost-as-hot hot friend. The whole bunch of us were ogling at the whole bunch of them on the monorail. Later on, we heard her tell eugene "ohh.. so they're your friends. they kept looking at us just now." AH. hahahha. bloody hwachongians. we made ourselves lk like bread-and-butter minions once again.

But hey! we make pple feel good bout themselves..so i guess that's a good thing(: 2 pats on the back 63!

anyway, i reallly REALLy wanna study hard this time round. I know i always always always say i want to study hard but i never put in 100%. all my life i think.

but this time it's gonna be different ok!

im determined to be determined and hopefully it pays off! (my toes and fingers crossed with a cherry on top)

and thank god there's no more schl for the rest of this week. i wldnt have survived it. This week FeelingStressedOut brought along its best friend, Antisocial. S-U-C-K-SSS. . ive always valued sincerity but i find myself smiling and pretending to be happy when i talk to some people. maybe it's more of ctrllingyourshitmood rather than insincerity.. but it makes me feel like a bad person :(

and i wished i were more of the outright caring kinda person, but im not so sweet(esp when im stressed) and i cant help it! and seeing people like stelly being so loving 24/7 to the people around her just makes me feel like a lazy/ungrateful/dontknowhowtotreasurepple kinda person im thinking too much again.

and i got a call today but i told them i need to consider. On one hand i feel very insecure bout myself (Today), but on the other im thinking, 'just be spontaneous la you bitch.'

a trip to sentosa and i conclude that almost all the girls in my class have nice big boobs. it's okay.. i have nice big feet (:

and this entry is too long for my liking RUSH HOUR THREE tmr (:::