firewater lake
gosh i just came back from like 5hrs of bumming at Dempsey. It's an amazing place. lots of green, lots of space, very high ceilings.. i think i really needed it.
went with the touch girls to celebrate zuoj's birthday.liane, momo, waiyee, jasmine, olivia, yunpei... It's been a long time since i spent time with them, and i almost forgot how much i enjoy their company(: I think it's kinda pathetic but haha.. the most intellectual, engaging conversations i've ever had this year (other than with, maybe, kim) have been on touch chillouts. Jasmine starts pondering out loud something like.. "don't you find laughter amazing? Like how feeling amused can trigger this mechanism that makes you erupt in a sound." yeah. something like that.. and it'll lead to this whole conversation bout how there's a difference between being holy and mature (wth right.), bout the brink of death, the afterlife. ..Jasmine believes in a soul, a possible continuation of the spirit into a realm of perfection, a higher level to anticipate, even. But I kinda think we simply just vanish. and i think life's more beautiful that way.
Jas told us this line from a book, "there's a neccessary joy in watching a bird fly to eat."
cos freedom and feed dont always intermingle. ohno i really dont want to end up in the shenton way crowd! If i reach this stage in my life where im discontented i really hope i find in myself the strength to rise out of purgatory. We were saying all the adults around us dont exactly seem to have very fulfilling lives but they probably had big dreams like us.. and look where they're now.
"you know..maybe they dont even know their dreams are broken."one step at a time and unknowingly, you end up getting pushed along a current you never hoped for.
"yeah. or maybe they're just postponing their dreams."
till never.
i wonder where i'll be. my dreams are simple (ithink.)
-gynae/obstetrician/paediatrician.. somewhere along.
-a loving family with the most beautiful kids.(i think my womanly instincts are surfacing. haha i want to like take my kids to the science centre, read to them, take them to plays, take them to do community work. yea!)
-um, liquor ice cream cafe.
-books and music.
all those fluff i talk bout like mega yachts and whatnots.. dont think i really want them anymore.
and we talked bout how there's so much truth when Bianca from Othello said "i must be circumstanced." She brought out this point bout how to love someone you have to allow yourself to be circumstanced, lose control, feeble yourself.
Iago(the antagonist) always goes on bout how he's holding the reigns, but he never knows love, cause love and being circumstanced have to converge.
Super true huh.love's like freefall.
anyway, there're like so many random things in my mind in constant flux. Like how i think a trumpet solo resonating in a hall can be like the most beautiful thing in the world. cos for that moment it's like the only stream of sound in the universe. and there's this..honesty, in its singleness. i cant pinpoint the feeling. Anyway, jasmine really amazes me cos she's able to put all these thoughts into the rightest words and its really nice listening to her because she puts it so nicely and i think 'yeah! that's it." i think i need to read more. my vocabulary is like how freakin small. sometimes i feel like a prisoner.
oh and along the way we exchanged disgusting stories like how liane's mum put her chicks into the toaster oven cos they looked cold... and they were never cold again :( and how someone actually feels betrayed (??!) when she knows her parents are makin luv. ahaha.
That said, i gotta get back to reality.
mug time.
went with the touch girls to celebrate zuoj's birthday.liane, momo, waiyee, jasmine, olivia, yunpei... It's been a long time since i spent time with them, and i almost forgot how much i enjoy their company(: I think it's kinda pathetic but haha.. the most intellectual, engaging conversations i've ever had this year (other than with, maybe, kim) have been on touch chillouts. Jasmine starts pondering out loud something like.. "don't you find laughter amazing? Like how feeling amused can trigger this mechanism that makes you erupt in a sound." yeah. something like that.. and it'll lead to this whole conversation bout how there's a difference between being holy and mature (wth right.), bout the brink of death, the afterlife. ..Jasmine believes in a soul, a possible continuation of the spirit into a realm of perfection, a higher level to anticipate, even. But I kinda think we simply just vanish. and i think life's more beautiful that way.
Jas told us this line from a book, "there's a neccessary joy in watching a bird fly to eat."
cos freedom and feed dont always intermingle. ohno i really dont want to end up in the shenton way crowd! If i reach this stage in my life where im discontented i really hope i find in myself the strength to rise out of purgatory. We were saying all the adults around us dont exactly seem to have very fulfilling lives but they probably had big dreams like us.. and look where they're now.
"you know..maybe they dont even know their dreams are broken."one step at a time and unknowingly, you end up getting pushed along a current you never hoped for.
"yeah. or maybe they're just postponing their dreams."
till never.
i wonder where i'll be. my dreams are simple (ithink.)
-gynae/obstetrician/paediatrician.. somewhere along.
-a loving family with the most beautiful kids.(i think my womanly instincts are surfacing. haha i want to like take my kids to the science centre, read to them, take them to plays, take them to do community work. yea!)
-um, liquor ice cream cafe.
-books and music.
all those fluff i talk bout like mega yachts and whatnots.. dont think i really want them anymore.
and we talked bout how there's so much truth when Bianca from Othello said "i must be circumstanced." She brought out this point bout how to love someone you have to allow yourself to be circumstanced, lose control, feeble yourself.
Iago(the antagonist) always goes on bout how he's holding the reigns, but he never knows love, cause love and being circumstanced have to converge.
Super true huh.love's like freefall.
anyway, there're like so many random things in my mind in constant flux. Like how i think a trumpet solo resonating in a hall can be like the most beautiful thing in the world. cos for that moment it's like the only stream of sound in the universe. and there's this..honesty, in its singleness. i cant pinpoint the feeling. Anyway, jasmine really amazes me cos she's able to put all these thoughts into the rightest words and its really nice listening to her because she puts it so nicely and i think 'yeah! that's it." i think i need to read more. my vocabulary is like how freakin small. sometimes i feel like a prisoner.
oh and along the way we exchanged disgusting stories like how liane's mum put her chicks into the toaster oven cos they looked cold... and they were never cold again :( and how someone actually feels betrayed (??!) when she knows her parents are makin luv. ahaha.
That said, i gotta get back to reality.
mug time.
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