Megs

WHY DO I FEEL SO WEARY TODAYYYYY.

yesterday morning was stupid.

supposed to go for the interview. so for the first time in my life i went to find out more about law. (im still set on becoming a doctor. but in the unfortunate unfortanate event that my childhood dream gets binned by the NUS admissions office, i MIGHT do business and law. and MAAAYYYYBEEEE one day, i can offer my legal and business expertise to saving abit of the world)

So i spent like 2 late nights reading and reading.

So i woke up at 8 to eat my bread and read stuff id jotted down/thought through.

So i vexed over what to wear.

So i gave myself a dont-be-nervous pep thought.

SO SU-LIN CALLED AND SAID 'hey monica, arent you coming down today all the kids are here'

SO I SAID 'no, i thought i told you i've got an interview.'

so she said 'but didnt you say...'

So i said 'no. i thought you meant...'

...

SO SHE SAID ' okay.. alright...'

in the most guiltifying way.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So i paced up and down my room feeling like shit, thinking 'fuck.'

i know there's only me and her to handle the class and the kids are like SUGAR-RUSHED ANIMALS. so basically id be leaving her to die and even if it wasnt my fault, it was super feeling like my fault.

super suck.

called in to tell them ive got terrible gastric. bad shape. no good for interiew. can postpone?

"wait for us to contact you." :(

but things became alot better after i dashed into PlayDays like a superhero. The kids were so adorableee!! like more adorable than before. when i was sitting on the blue mat, johnathan ran over, bent down, put his face in front of mine and just STARED (in wonder, i hope.) Then Megan handed me a plastic lettuce to eat. and johnathan poured me a pretend cup of tea with an egg inside. Then megan handed me a tomato and i said 'i dont like raw tomato'. So she said 'okay. boil it?' what a heartmelt!

BUT WHY DO I FEEL SO WEARY TODAYYY :( the repercussions of yesterday morn?

Well i've got places to go but i just feel like sitting at coffeebean by myself with a book and a large cup of double vanilla tea latte. (vanilla lovers you gotta try it!!! okay this is gonna sound gross, but i must say it.- even your burp smells beautiful!)

andandand! just now, i called my auntie in burma to chat. and she told me my auntie in madison called her to tell her (in burmese) " your niece ah... heard frm her dad that she said 1 mth in the same state very boring. Staying at my place with her aunties and uncles who love her so much VERY BORING?! i was feeling happy they're coming over. but now i feel sad and angry. "

i felt like crying you know when i heard that. Sad cos i didnt mean to hurt her feelings, Pissed cos she's thinking too much. cmon! madison isnt exactly the most interesting place. and not like i want to visit different states by myself (and yunpei), i want them around too. GEEZ.

so i explained to my burma auntie, and she was super cute!she told me in english, "dont worry she's not really angry. It's just that at that SPOT she was hurt. you know... just at that SPOT.."

well okay. and byebye its swim time with harSHA!