First day of schl after a nottooshortbutfeelsshort holiday

Elifag before the best facial in the world

Courteous young ladies

exploring dangerous worlds

young boy enjoying himself...

mugging like dogs for a terrible CA2

da gurls & me, we prowl the street..

Ive been feeling a little different recently. maybe im just getting older. too lazy to move my butt to exercise, too lazy to exert myself, too lazy to talk, only know how to bum around and chilloutz. and eat. and study because i have to.

I dont want to be like that ): like some mud-rolling slug sloth hybrid.

This is more serious than it sounds.

Therefore. my 3+1 new year resolutions are

- Eat more fruits and veggie and drink more water.

- Meditate for 15 minutes every tuesday and thursday w/o fail.

- Dont be so lazy to talk to people

- Be open to little adventures, even if they require tiring physical movements.

(i have started by walking the rusty old traintrack in sunset way. and running for 12 minutes on a jogging path ive never jogged on before.)

Straits times said not too many resolutions. so i'll stick to these 4. and my brother is going through puberty his baby voice is gonna go away ) :

new romantic

its been so long i almost forgot my username to blogger!

HELLO

this blog has always been somewhere i tick/check/incinerate my emotional rubbish. and my emotional rubbish is really quite rubbish, so this blog is basically just a rubbish log.

Im just hear to rip out some pages from my teenage textbook

Dear WWW, i'm officially more official than ever ever before, over my eternal ex-B hangover.

i occasionally check out his G's blog out of a semi-controllable curiosity and find myself feeling strangely hollow in my metacarpals. But today i felt absolutely nothing (: (: like FINALLY!!! all i thought about was how lucky i am to have gone through that crap that lead me to elijah.

(i cant believe im even mentioning this shit again.)

anww, med's schl been okay. but must really study like SIAO.

i miss seeing my fav girlies and maybe 1 or 2 boylies around. making new friends is tough. i find it so hard to click with many people, or too too lazy to strike ups conversations. I miss being half of a rice cake with kimberly every day and talking like a bimbo.

And i dont know what's wrong with my tongue. kiss too much or what. wanted to say "that guy said, "you can sit in elizabeth's mouth", but it came out as "that guy said you can sit in elizabes mouse". tsk.

plus, i really miss the kids at playschool i keep dreaming bout going back.

but i have swimming, jazz and a date tmr so goodnight!

monimerica.

kawkaw and mama fooling around with a Double Johnny

van whorez.

at the world's largest brat fest!!!!!!!!

its been..a couple of days. Weather's cold but very awesome.so i wake up very happy every day. hothotheat spoils my mood. Im still in a state of confusion. its been shoppingshopping almost every day for the 'couple' of days. (i've kinda lost track of time!)

ive bought quite alot of stuff (mostly for myself how selfish right :( it's really hard... ) And when guilt sets in, (like i start thinking bout how much money im wasting when i could just donate it ALL ) i tell myself i'll just shop like hell now so i can concentrate on studying when schl starts.

No wasting time thinking bout what to wear in the morning, no feeling discontented with my wardrobe. BRAINSPACE MUST SAVE. for livers, gall bladders and future life saving endeavours.

anw, yesterday night was so weird. i dreamt i went on a buddy-date with nicholas. and he dragged me around throughout by the finger cos i walked too slow. then i semi woke up and saw wilson beside me and thought it was elijah and i almost touchied his face. woke up for real just in time. well, my sick dreams are made of these. haha!

(nicholas, my dream dont mean nothin geddit? ive dreamt of the most unlikely of people.)

and, ive gotten down to reading Radiance of the King. but till page 35 im still like a whale in mud.

SOoo...okie dokes goodnight americaaaa! my aunt said must slp early cos tmr we're going to the EAST, wherever that is! and then in the evening we're gonna play mini golf (:

I STILL LOVE YOU THE MOST SINGAPOREEE!!!!!!

<3>

hey you lk so beautiful!

here's jakob my galapagos sea turtle!

johnathan my rectangle

and elijah cai my heartmelt (:

today i got my letter frm NUS saying i got accepted to medicine and suddenly the whole house was in a frenzy!! happy frenzy (:

my dad kept saying he can finally pang sim pang sim (fang xin?)

and my mum was like "OHHHH!!HH!H!! hhahahaha",

and my grandpa- "call ji kwee call ji kwee (mum's sis)!",

and my brother, "i dont believe it. i actually feel happy for you.",

and my ahma just smiled and smiled.

then we started calling the worlllddd! my dad's siblings in the states, my mum's side in australia and burma, and my cousins in clementi, tiong bahru, and orchard. (we're very close knit:)

and my uncle was like, " WE MUST HAVE A CELEBRATION!!!"

my aunt in the states, the one who heads the family business, the one who lks like me, the one who takes care of EVERYBODY, was bawling her eyes out over the phone! its was so drama. but that's just the way we love her (:

" you dont know how much my brothers and sisters and nieces and nephews mean to me. I feel like my life is complete and happy now. im so proud of you.. i was so worried... *bawl* "

and she told me, that apprantly, my other aunt had dreamt that i opened her door one day and told her "swe kaw i got into medicine." but she didnt want to say anything in case she jinxed it. her dreams are supposedly very accurate.

and my dad (: well i havent seen him this happy in a long long time.

i guess i nvr realised how much it really meant to them. im just so happy they're happy. & im hoping like crazy elijah gets in too. he was such a sweetheart today.. like every other day (: i got taken on some mysterious busride and ended up on the singapore flyer!! it may lk cheesy but im telling you, the view is gorgeousgorgeous. we stuck our faces to the glasspanels and tried to imagine we were levitating! crazy good (: told my mum abt it, and i want to take my brother and cousins on a ride. i think they'll go wild, really!

so more than finally having more certainty in my life, today was esp beautiful because i got reminded of just how much the people around me love me, unconditionally.

<3

l.0VE

bitch & boy

my new home theatre. (kidding!!!!!!)

bk. tv.psp.tv.psp @westwood

i was reading my book when i realised how sweet it is for all of us to sit around like this. so i decided to take a picture for a keepsake! and yes, for 10 seconds i was pretending to read that bk.just re-enacting the scene man!

chilling out and feeling very appy.

drove by to tea party for scones and tea and chat and yummyyyyy (:

i really very absolutely really love spending time with my cousins. nevermind that our conversations dont get even remotely intelligent. and i think who i am with them is really who i really am - a joyous shameless idiot (:

<3

my bestest bestest BESTEST friends.

speaking of best friends! its time i put down in words the happiest things bout the day i turned 19.

started awesomepossum with elijah coming over to sunset way at 12 30am to play me the guitar, sing terribly (kidding!), and pass me lots of useless stuff (kidding again!).

then in the evening, it was off to rider's cafe to eat horses and their babies(kidding!!) w my favourite people. Blindfolded and at the absolute mercy of a few kinky barbarians, i got pomegranate stuffed into my mouth.

and many more.

then when i got home i got a text frm kimbobobo to go to our longforgotten BFF blog. it made me so darn stinkin touched YO!!!!(kidding.)

actually i was just very very touched. and very very miss-her-alot.

and and im so happy today i think i shall share w the www some sexy quotes from my sexy-quotes book.

Disclaimer: i did not buy the book, im still pure, and i do not get turned on by such shit. i just appreciate the wit.

Enjoy yall ;)

My ultimate fantasy i sot entice a man to my bedroom, put a gun to his head, and say, "Make babies or die." - ruby wax

The gravity is very light today.

I have an erection as a result of that.

All males have erections on days like this. - Kurt Vonnegut

Imagination is more impt than knowledge. - A. Einstein

The reason pple sweat is so they wont catch fire when making love. -Don Rose

Sex at age 90 is like trying to play pool with a rope. - Geroge Burns

Legs are a girls best friend. But sometimes, even bestfriends need to be apart. - some dumb male.

God will give you the whole-body-orgasm when you die if you spend your life in divine foreplay. - Graffito

HAHA overkill. gdnigt!

Happy appy

it's in the jeans! jessica was so sweet. She ended with, "i want to dedicate that song to my mum <3"

ok detour, here's my noo look. hate it or love it! the amazingly oblivious out of tune band who lks pretty gd on stage

jessica getting her THIRD frm jeanette aw

the family

the killjoys @ Homeclub. bad photo, but i dont have anymoree.

when i saw it in the morn it still had its skin on and i wondered if all its intestine juice had burst out in its body.

Came home and saw this. Then i thought bout all the cars with frog skin on their tyres and how their owners have no cloo.

ok was lazy to edit photos so i just made everything b a w.

anyway! today the killjoys went down to crescent to guest perform. and my cousin came in 3rd in some crescent idol thingy. There were SO MANY SINGERS so 3rd is very good okay!

almost all the contestants could sing pretty impressively. and the equipment was very good. money well spent. hwach shld take a pointer man.

okaaay i want to hao lianr abit!!!!

the crescent crowd was awesome(: the moment i said "first song's im yours by jason mraz.." there was this immediate unanimous WOOOOOOOhoo!

(they cheered like monkeys for everybody actually, but it still felt so gooddd.)

and after the end of everything, the sound man told me "your performance shiok. i very enjoy."

YAYYYYY

!!!

(:

head meets heart O <3

my hands are cold cold cold and im...
shake shake shakin my shakies out
shake shake shakin my shakies out
SHAKE SHAKE SHAKEin my shakies outt
wibble my wobbles awaaaay!

settle the kettle

i really dislike evil thoughts in my mind.makes me feel like such a scum. i dont actually wish for certain people to be unhappy. its just that when i read some people's blogs and they've got so many inter-esting photos i suddenly feel like my life is relatively boring. and im a bore:(

But that's not true!! im actually very very happy SHEESH.
i forget im not the kind to keep up with lots of photos/keepsakes.
i can be such a baby.all this new media's messing with my mind.

anyway, the gig at homeclub was comfortable (: i could actually indulge in the music for once. and the audience was l-o-v-e-ly <3
I cldnt speak to the crowd for nuts though. (joy actually said i lked damn gao wei when i was trying to say stuff. haha.)

and ive been reading reading reading thinking reading for monday's interview. like i told yuns, maybe i screwed up dentistry to ace this.

i really cant wait to read lots of storybooks.
lots lots.
lots lots.
lotslotslots.

blisterin barnacles

THE WEATHER'S SO DAMN HOTTTT my mood is totally yuck.

My ex-orthodontist is so damn hot as well. but it's a nice hot. the.. I- wanna-take-you-home-but-i-cant kinda hot.

hothothot.

saw him in the hot canteen.

while i was eating my hot wanton.

hothothot.

hot sluggish day.

this is how i feel today

hothotheat :

(big red thing is the sun. little yellow house is my house. tiny pitiful black scum of the land is ME.)

chest nuts.

i miss whoring for haagen dazs. Checkitout my 9 layer latte YO.

anwwwww,The question wasnt self-centered like i hoped it to be:

If there was one aspect of the medical profession which you could change. what would it be and why. Refer to your observations and experiences.

So i talked bout working hrs and how there's a concern that singapore docs are overworked. I hope i did okay but im worried i pigeonholed it to a local context but butbuttt what2doo.

and

there were like 800 people in the whole hall. a SEA OF PEOPLE. i felt like i needed to be moses to get in.

anywaaay, tmr got another interview im gonna go sit down at my table now and dig into the depths of my soul.

byebyecheerio!

this used to be my uncle's way of saying bye to me. we'd turn around & wiggle our butts when we say it (: (: (:

okay alright

its todaaaay. YOOHOO! haha.

my aunty's so sweet. She just called over frm the states to wish me luck. and the highly religious person she is, she told me to seek my parents' and grandparents' blessing before i leave the house. and finally she told to be calm and pray that whatever happens will be for the best.

SOOOOOO im gonna go take a bath now and chillout.

and maybe btw, enjoy the exhilaration of being at the edge of a dream (:

essay test tmr

omgomgomgomoMGGG. im feeling quite nervous bout tmr's essay. i feel the jitters in my own roooom!!! and im afraid i wont be able to fall aslp tonight.

just read some med students' blogs. and its pretty comforting to see that these people who got through really wanted it with all their heart. i hope tmr im able to sort out my thoughts and write down stuff speedyspeedy!

okay and my brother's acting stupid again.

"look jiejie look! i can play the recorder with my right nostril"

*starts playing a strangely melodic tune with right nostril*

"and now my left nostril."

*proceeds to play with left nostril*

"you see. the sound is less good with my left nostril. This means my right nostril works better."

(i try to hide signs of amusement)

"maybe next time i can try farting. jiejie, you think i should risk my music exam and play with my nostrils??"


(and while im typing all this my mum is pretending to cough like she's gonna die. to scare my bro. and my bro is patting her back vigourously. haha!)

good luck to me and you and the rest of the hearties.

Fast remedy

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY am i still getting the chills!!!!!!!!!

hello i just faced a stupid fear (:

this kinda fear is

good for.. certain art forms.

it is also evil and.. whats that R word.. RAVENOUS.

i would like to banish it to hell. and beyond.

and attain peace.

I MEAN IT.

butbutbut!! hahahahah. today: Happy day.

• Swimming with hanna and nabiha, whom seem to miss me very much. (id like to be humble but its true!!!)

• Tea Party for Scones and Caramel Black Tea with my brosie blue- he told me the story line for TENACIOUS D.then we played Fact or Crap.

• Prata, and HDB loitering with Elijah Cai - hot keyboardist of Stellastory

not-so-hot bf of monicatan.

(i really hope we Medicine together manssss! I'll go touch kids while you unfuck their minds.)

SO...

5 6 7 8, yes i think today was great!

Farewell sweet world!

Yahoo0000o!

Elijah told me he got the letter (not surprising), and i didnt think i got one. started to feel panicky and emo then my papa CALLED!!! and he told me i got mail. and i was very very very happy i omgawded around the swimming complex and sat down on a bench to smile to myself for i dont know how long!(: (: (:

its too early to be too happy but i cant help it! i feel like framing up that piece of paperrrrrr (:

Happy Playday day (:

I've got so much to say bout my very happy birthday which was happiestsappiest at the beginning and the end. but it's gonna be a little long and i need to clear my room then go down to swim. (Made a bet with mika that id swim 20 or else) SO ANOTHER DAY.

okay quick quick.

today at playschool i met little samuel and his mum in the toilet and she told me that the night before while he was lying on the bed with her, he said, "tmr school. teacher monica.. teacher monica.. teacher monica..teacher monica.." all the way until SHE fell aslp. hahah! sounds so weird right! but so terribly adorable!!

Samuel refuses to talk to ANYONE. that day i stood in for a teacher in his class and after class ended Sam and Fifi were like

"did samuel talk to you?"

"nope."

"oh bummer. You'd have made a breakthrough if he did. We've even resorted to holding back his snack to make him speak."

well not that he cant talk. i heard him blabbering to his mummy in hokkien like some beng in the toilet that day. and the moment he saw me, ziiip. silence.

so after his mummy told me (and he kept smiling at me), i thought 'okay. this is my chance.'

So i sat him on my lap, oo-ed and ah-ed over his PlayDay stamp, pointed to his hand and went,

"woooow... you've got a stamp on your foot. you've got a stamp on your foot samuel! look at that. it's on your FOOT."

and he went "H..."

then stopped!

I CAME SO CLOSE.

anw! Here's PlayDays:

and this is so random, but my mummy's beautiful!