Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Saturday, October 25, 2008
new romantic

Thursday, May 29, 2008
monimerica.
I STILL LOVE YOU THE MOST SINGAPOREEE!!!!!!
Sunday, May 18, 2008
hey you lk so beautiful!
and elijah cai my heartmelt (:
today i got my letter frm NUS saying i got accepted to medicine and suddenly the whole house was in a frenzy!! happy frenzy (:
my dad kept saying he can finally pang sim pang sim (fang xin?)
and my mum was like "OHHHH!!HH!H!! hhahahaha",
and my grandpa- "call ji kwee call ji kwee (mum's sis)!",
and my brother, "i dont believe it. i actually feel happy for you.",
and my ahma just smiled and smiled.
then we started calling the worlllddd! my dad's siblings in the states, my mum's side in australia and burma, and my cousins in clementi, tiong bahru, and orchard. (we're very close knit:)
and my uncle was like, " WE MUST HAVE A CELEBRATION!!!"
my aunt in the states, the one who heads the family business, the one who lks like me, the one who takes care of EVERYBODY, was bawling her eyes out over the phone! its was so drama. but that's just the way we love her (:
" you dont know how much my brothers and sisters and nieces and nephews mean to me. I feel like my life is complete and happy now. im so proud of you.. i was so worried... *bawl* "
and she told me, that apprantly, my other aunt had dreamt that i opened her door one day and told her "swe kaw i got into medicine." but she didnt want to say anything in case she jinxed it. her dreams are supposedly very accurate.
and my dad (: well i havent seen him this happy in a long long time.
i guess i nvr realised how much it really meant to them. im just so happy they're happy. & im hoping like crazy elijah gets in too. he was such a sweetheart today.. like every other day (: i got taken on some mysterious busride and ended up on the singapore flyer!! it may lk cheesy but im telling you, the view is gorgeousgorgeous. we stuck our faces to the glasspanels and tried to imagine we were levitating! crazy good (: told my mum abt it, and i want to take my brother and cousins on a ride. i think they'll go wild, really!
so more than finally having more certainty in my life, today was esp beautiful because i got reminded of just how much the people around me love me, unconditionally.
<3
Sunday, May 11, 2008
l.0VE
Friday, May 09, 2008
Happy appy
jessica was so sweet. She ended with, "i want to dedicate that song to my mum <3"
the amazingly oblivious out of tune band who lks pretty gd on stage
jessica getting her THIRD frm jeanette aw Thursday, May 08, 2008
head meets heart O <3
shake shake shakin my shakies out
shake shake shakin my shakies out
SHAKE SHAKE SHAKEin my shakies outt
wibble my wobbles awaaaay!
Sunday, May 04, 2008
settle the kettle
But that's not true!! im actually very very happy SHEESH.
i forget im not the kind to keep up with lots of photos/keepsakes.
i can be such a baby.all this new media's messing with my mind.
anyway, the gig at homeclub was comfortable (: i could actually indulge in the music for once. and the audience was l-o-v-e-ly <3
I cldnt speak to the crowd for nuts though. (joy actually said i lked damn gao wei when i was trying to say stuff. haha.)
and ive been reading reading reading thinking reading for monday's interview. like i told yuns, maybe i screwed up dentistry to ace this.
i really cant wait to read lots of storybooks.
lots lots.
lots lots.
lotslotslots.
Monday, April 28, 2008
blisterin barnacles

Sunday, April 27, 2008
chest nuts.
anwwwww,The question wasnt self-centered like i hoped it to be:
and
okay alright
my aunty's so sweet. She just called over frm the states to wish me luck. and the highly religious person she is, she told me to seek my parents' and grandparents' blessing before i leave the house. and finally she told to be calm and pray that whatever happens will be for the best.
SOOOOOO im gonna go take a bath now and chillout.
and maybe btw, enjoy the exhilaration of being at the edge of a dream (:
Saturday, April 26, 2008
essay test tmr
just read some med students' blogs. and its pretty comforting to see that these people who got through really wanted it with all their heart. i hope tmr im able to sort out my thoughts and write down stuff speedyspeedy!
okay and my brother's acting stupid again.
"look jiejie look! i can play the recorder with my right nostril"
*starts playing a strangely melodic tune with right nostril*
"and now my left nostril."
*proceeds to play with left nostril*
"you see. the sound is less good with my left nostril. This means my right nostril works better."
(i try to hide signs of amusement)
"maybe next time i can try farting. jiejie, you think i should risk my music exam and play with my nostrils??"
(and while im typing all this my mum is pretending to cough like she's gonna die. to scare my bro. and my bro is patting her back vigourously. haha!)
Monday, April 21, 2008
Fast remedy
- Swimming with hanna and nabiha, whom seem to miss me very much. (id like to be humble but its true!!!)
- Tea Party for Scones and Caramel Black Tea with my brosie blue- he told me the story line for TENACIOUS D.then we played Fact or Crap.
- Prata, and HDB loitering with Elijah Cai - hot keyboardist of Stellastory


Saturday, April 19, 2008
Yahoo0000o!

Thursday, April 17, 2008
Happy Playday day (:
and this is so random, but my mummy's beautiful!
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
T2 i love you
I'm gonna miss my lil' baby warrior turtle. I hope you get lots of sunlight up there (:
Friday, April 11, 2008
We must not let a whole generation go to waste.
Sunday, April 06, 2008
NUSHURRYCALL.

nice right! but its 220$. 
"dont want this cake la. I'm not called simone."- stupidwilson.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
w i d i t o u b i d t u d
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Megs
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
ignition
Despite kimbo's momentary chuckle at an absolutey heart wrenching scene, i still enjoyed the movie a 100%.
Friday, March 07, 2008
A level results later at 2.30.
if ever i become a mother, id be crazy thankful if my child came out with every organ in his little body. thankful too if he didnt grow up playing cricket only to find at 17 that that ache in his shoulder was cos of bone cancer.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
I'll be the freak you can top
MJ is SO INTENSE i love him!
Here's dirty diana, my addiction for 2wks and counting.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Pimp Beloved (:

We offered to pay for anything he wanted.
enjoying life.
Handsome entertaining himself during his long moments of darknessWednesday, February 13, 2008
Finity
Well the blog was a good read,
So i'd like to share it with you (:
...If only we could have boxes for our senses, boxes we could temporarily put away, and come back to every time we feel lonely, or when we need a reminder of those deep feelings that come so rarely in our lives.
Friday, February 08, 2008
CNY 08
wessexxxx y
191
jessica <333Tuesday, February 05, 2008
tribute to tekong boy.
tekong boy says 'eh! take my picture like this.'

and btw btw, i found pictures of the good ol' days (:Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Been thinking of handcuffs
jessica's 55$ haircut. ?!
lking like a damn burglar!
For nicholas to paste in his locker and own his commando boys(: (:Friday, January 18, 2008
public health
- Haagen Dazs has been nice the people there are so joyful! At least now i know what to equip my liquer ice cream shack with (opens in 2026) . But then again liquer is really hard to freeze. that's why tiramisu melts so fast see now you know! But whatever. I'll worry bout that in 2023.
- My swimming career has yet to be realised. Still training with ladykiller alex (call 91997194 for fun please!) I cant wait to suck the money out of ladies and childrens and let danielsingh suck it out of me.
- The interviewer at the US embassy told me i look like a dangerous criminal. wow funny
- Papa's blood sugar level is very high so he's eating healthy. so my entire family is eating healthy. so we're all happier now (:
- Wilson got accused of hacking into the schl's comp. haha seriously man, he's monica's brother. IT savvy does NOT run in the family. anyway, the school finally realised that too so they're issuing him a letter of apology. and he's very excited (:
Friday, January 11, 2008
tobacco tin
Dont want that feeling creeping back..
That stupid familiar painful feeling i keep somewhere at the back of my mind
Hoping itd just DIE.
but other than that, another tour YAY!
Thursday, January 10, 2008
tekong zoo.




Sunday, November 25, 2007
PERFECT
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so many many many plans. too little little little money. hahahahah.
three people asked me to help them in prom shopping already i HATE shopping now but i couldnt say no. life size barbiewomen/man. exciting ah! it's time i started charging.
and beach touch is the rockest. didnt win but the oldies felt we played one of our best games today and i wasnt scared at all! which is a superrarity.
andandand. he's (:
we'll.. see how it goes!
last thing! okay no time. gotta watch batman with my gutless baby brother.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Try to put it to bed but it chases
aiyo. like that how to be prom king you tell me.

Thursday, September 20, 2007
Be glad you nose is on your face
Touch it: it won't shrink like an eyeball,
Friday, September 14, 2007
firewater lake
went with the touch girls to celebrate zuoj's birthday.liane, momo, waiyee, jasmine, olivia, yunpei... It's been a long time since i spent time with them, and i almost forgot how much i enjoy their company(: I think it's kinda pathetic but haha.. the most intellectual, engaging conversations i've ever had this year (other than with, maybe, kim) have been on touch chillouts. Jasmine starts pondering out loud something like.. "don't you find laughter amazing? Like how feeling amused can trigger this mechanism that makes you erupt in a sound." yeah. something like that.. and it'll lead to this whole conversation bout how there's a difference between being holy and mature (wth right.), bout the brink of death, the afterlife. ..Jasmine believes in a soul, a possible continuation of the spirit into a realm of perfection, a higher level to anticipate, even. But I kinda think we simply just vanish. and i think life's more beautiful that way.
Jas told us this line from a book, "there's a neccessary joy in watching a bird fly to eat."
cos freedom and feed dont always intermingle. ohno i really dont want to end up in the shenton way crowd! If i reach this stage in my life where im discontented i really hope i find in myself the strength to rise out of purgatory. We were saying all the adults around us dont exactly seem to have very fulfilling lives but they probably had big dreams like us.. and look where they're now.
"you know..maybe they dont even know their dreams are broken."one step at a time and unknowingly, you end up getting pushed along a current you never hoped for.
"yeah. or maybe they're just postponing their dreams."
till never.
i wonder where i'll be. my dreams are simple (ithink.)
-gynae/obstetrician/paediatrician.. somewhere along.
-a loving family with the most beautiful kids.(i think my womanly instincts are surfacing. haha i want to like take my kids to the science centre, read to them, take them to plays, take them to do community work. yea!)
-um, liquor ice cream cafe.
-books and music.
all those fluff i talk bout like mega yachts and whatnots.. dont think i really want them anymore.
and we talked bout how there's so much truth when Bianca from Othello said "i must be circumstanced." She brought out this point bout how to love someone you have to allow yourself to be circumstanced, lose control, feeble yourself.
Iago(the antagonist) always goes on bout how he's holding the reigns, but he never knows love, cause love and being circumstanced have to converge.
Super true huh.love's like freefall.
anyway, there're like so many random things in my mind in constant flux. Like how i think a trumpet solo resonating in a hall can be like the most beautiful thing in the world. cos for that moment it's like the only stream of sound in the universe. and there's this..honesty, in its singleness. i cant pinpoint the feeling. Anyway, jasmine really amazes me cos she's able to put all these thoughts into the rightest words and its really nice listening to her because she puts it so nicely and i think 'yeah! that's it." i think i need to read more. my vocabulary is like how freakin small. sometimes i feel like a prisoner.
oh and along the way we exchanged disgusting stories like how liane's mum put her chicks into the toaster oven cos they looked cold... and they were never cold again :( and how someone actually feels betrayed (??!) when she knows her parents are makin luv. ahaha.
That said, i gotta get back to reality.
mug time.
Sunday, September 09, 2007
high interest rates in boyfriend like actor person.
anyway, i just checked the timetable yesterday and it feels like the next two weeks are gonna be MAD. i hope it flys by.. yet holds out long enough for me to study amply. and during a nap today i dreamt of eating a popsicle that was made out of ice from the HIMALAYAS super cool!grape flavoured somemore eh!
well, good luck to me (and all my friends) for tmr.
love you world, be nice to me (and everyone i love)(and maybe those i dont love too much)
goodnight (:
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Friday, August 10, 2007
Curious is dead. its time to party my friends!
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
BIG GULP is my godsend.
Thursday, August 02, 2007
probabilitili.
My grp of friends and i got into some trouble and were being punished. Usually we'd get hit on our hands, but the teacher in charge that day was nice and young so she showed us a horror movie instead.
The movie was called Puppet Hand. and it was about this female ghost who had this prisoner girl on a hospital bed whom she'd screw every day.(wth). anyway, since she was a 'screwer', there was this scene in the movie where she start twirling horizontally like a screw driver. The girl was facked so bad she just lay there eyes wide open, deliriously skinny. Kinda like a rag doll with very little stuffing. She had a short bob and red lipstick smeared all around her mouth. and midway through i suddenly became part of the movie.(GREAT.) and i had to open my stupid mouth and insult the ghost. ended up screaming and being chased by her.. so exciting right? no. anyway, again, it was my dream so everything worked in my favour. all i had to do was scream IM SORRRRYYY! and she stopped chasing.
then i dropped back out of the movie (not before running to that ghost's bookshelf trying to steal a book), and walked out of the flat telling aiwen what a scary movie it was.
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
curiosity killed the cat.
on my way to schl the other morning i suddenly wondered what a morning for an acclaimed musician would be like, and how theyd feel when they get up in the morning.
and i just received an sms
which didnt say much.
but i want to change my pencil box because suddenly the whole world, one beach, and three coconut trees have it too.
sometimes things throb at the edge of consciousness and when im happy enough, my defense mechanisms work very well. but id like to remember all my notes though, they could fill up my entire psyche for all i care(for now). that would be very nice (:
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Riding the highs
(or more fondly known as.. SLAAASSSHH >=(
This is what henry park's been teaching my brotherThe justice league
Our first take! dont know why im so thrilled bout jumping pics.
enough.
Saturday, July 28, 2007
search party
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Peculiar Chris
I watched this amazing amazing play today at the library drama centre. Happy endings by Alfian Sa'at. It's a play about homosexuals and what it means for a society to come of age.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
In Transit
one connection
two.
schl food sucks
where im at
the only way's up.
harry potter was nice
and apparently onlyi think so
no nano. hate music for now..today.
checked out the website
looks pretty good
a change would be very nice
& finally,
a little more control (:
Monday, July 16, 2007
shithead.
Friday, July 13, 2007
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
it's amazing.but i dont know what the hell that guy's singing his pronunciation's damn TSK. I just know it makes me feel so omg-my-eyes-are-open-again, my heart's doing somersaults, and i just wanna run! haha.. cause' things arent all going the way i want it to, but its not too bad.. better than okay.. perfect in its own imperfect way (: haha. really! i dont know how to describe it, i just know it's MY FAVOURITE RUSH.
and it's kinda sweet.. if you dont know what he's saying. All you hear's the good stuff:
I could write it better than you ever felt it
So hum hallelujah
Just off the key of reason
I thought I loved you
It was just how you looked in the light
A teenage vow in a parking lot
Til tonight do us part
I sing the blues And swallow them too
but it was just how you lked in the light.. haha. whyd they have to spoil it like that!
Sunday, July 08, 2007
...stood at my window
closed my eyes
breathed in,
out
open...
and for a moment i felt so overwhelmed
like i was gonna crumble, fall and disappear.
Friday, July 06, 2007
X sushi.

also, roald dahl meant for James and the Giant Peach to be called James and the Giant Cherry.

Wednesday, July 04, 2007
offstage
because what is this.. a showcase?
my sadistic indulgence?
monica dont be stupid.
There's so much so much more..
& on this just-another wednesday evening,
it's going to be extra special
super sweet
and very real.
'cause i'll be jumping right in
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
i'll be electric soon with all that flux. HOT.

This afternoon was tough.
so i wrote a song, called "sir, you're sitting on my flowers".
ha. Might as well.
Anw cant wait to work something out with denise again tmr(:
and i found this girl's blog, i think she's very like me. Just that she takes the path of least resistance..but I think the path of least resistence is painful.so im fighting.
well id like to be her friend.. i think we could reallly hit it off. unless we're... circumstanced of course.
hahah. dont bother to comprehend.
Sunday, July 01, 2007
Great uncertaintyty on Chua Planet
postuitionwyuxiang
psychedelica sinisterita paprika vanillala MONICAFelt a little :( today so i tried to sleep.
ive been sleeping tola tola yesterday and today
haha
dont know if it's cos im 1)tired
2)Lazy 3)sick of thinking
but after i woke up i was :) again. okay more like.. :/
then i told myself "get a grip!! stop being such a disgusting sloth.", so i announced to my family
"IM GONNA STUDY PROPERLY NOW >=[ "
& i did, and felt :)er.
AND i tend to think alot when im studying. Not thinkmaththink kinda think. more like thinkcrapthink kinda think. NOT gd.
but today was different, thoughtcrapthoughts and suddenly kachingching!
..slight emancipation.
yahoo!
Saturday, June 30, 2007
escapade

there's this cafe, the second level's a mini movie theatre with all kinds of sofas/funny chairs. our model miss neo here is sitting on one such seat. In front of her would be the mini big-screen.
miss neo is now modelling one of the 123456 fine vintage dresses from japan which we could not 123456 resist to purchase.Thursday, June 28, 2007
im living on a kinky red dot!

Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Dickhead and Gorgeous Tan.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
A*
Monday, June 18, 2007
Releasing
" April 16, 2007I am forever trying to catch up with my 365 shots these days. Here's Monday. And here's to Releasing. the grinch that stole our JUNE HOLIDAYS.
i got so zonked i wrote E on my notes wrongly. Refer to Fig.1.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Where's her fifteen dollars??!
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
chapter 3
Monday, June 11, 2007
Playtimed
started off quite ugh i think. i guess the crowd we got in were pple who dont usually go to gigs so they were quite dead. the performers werent though.. narpal was like "i feel high ah!"hahaha (they're such cudeys OHmegush:)
aiya. and line up... shld have put syltra, page, in front to comfy it up abit. quite an overdose of heavy stuff. i felt kinda sian, the crowd lked sian, i felt even sianer, and it didnt help that i heard this: " you leaving alr ah" "yeah. cos its so fuckin fun inside"
bloodyhell.thanks man. from someone i know somemore.
but thankgoddddd..after bad obsession the mood starting lifting and people were all getting their booze,coke and chillin abit.
yeah and so we started chillin abit too (:
and syltra was the bomb yo!MY FAVOURITE(: when she plays it feels like everything's a warm shade of yellow.
made quite a bit of money, all the bands had a good time, and the place was surprisingly pretty packed all the way till the last band, JUST the kickstart im not happy with. but we'll learn! it's our first gig afterall. and the turnout was good. Mr. Shaharin was saying "really, it's quite a success. Next time if you wanna organise a gig, contact me. andwe'll split the proceeds."
haha wow
sounds good.
but find us the time.
okayokayokay. i think im perfectly okay alr. gotta treasure the beautiful in front of me now and quit being such a fickle discontented bitch.
yeah and for the record, i lost my graphic calculator at BarNone, what the hell right (:
Saturday, June 09, 2007
GIBB'senergy constant.ERISH.tsk.
Friday, June 08, 2007
peter current. ahah
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Monday, May 28, 2007
an eventful weekend
sj and sj.
kimberly and monica- riceballs forever.
there's a fine line between love and hateSaturday, May 26, 2007
the good ol' days

Wednesday, May 23, 2007
the clouds looked too pretty
Monday, May 14, 2007
more pls :)
Lit today was...stirring
(and i want to see you every day!)
Not like i understood everything she was saying
I dont even rmb anything i learnt. the only shits i rmb was something about how our perceptions become our reality.
I just remember feeling that certain thoughts and emotions throb at the edge of consciousness, yet remain so elusive to the word. It can get really frustrating because no one understands, and most of the time you cant either. But then shakespeare comes along and BAM... he(and maybe Mrs. Ang) liberates and validates for that moment by concretising the intangible... giving you a glimpse of yourself.. before class is over and you rmb not what you realised, but just how you felt.
Not like i have with me buckets of life experiences, but it's so real la, despite the drama. (actually i bet we're all damn drama inside, its just a matter of how well we hide it.)anyway, i cant help but feel there's this intimacy between the themes in the play and us powerful, foolish, loving beings, even if we're just 18. sometimes i think certain emotions i go through are so fiercely mine alone, the intensity, the complexity, the irrationality. but then i listen to some stupid song by like sugarcult and i get reminded its all universal. hahha and i feel like giving the singer a high five.. like "heey!! i feel that way too!!!" okay basically my pt is .. dont you think its amazing how so many people can do the exact same stupid things and have the exact same afterthoughts. it's like our lives arent our own.
aiya dont know how to say la. hahhaha
TO DOOZE:
*Players sales pitch during CT session on wednesday
Catch a glimpse of hots-bod-elijah by the way
Order an album on thursday
Buy a Playtime ticket for booze,chicks,andMUSICforjust10moolahsYAY!
Saturday, May 12, 2007
spinelli me please

Wednesday, May 09, 2007
starbucks me pls

Monday, May 07, 2007
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Let's Sit.
Thursday, April 26, 2007
G o s h.
gotta get nicolette to f kin redo the cover. when does being a minimalist become being too plain ah. HAIYAaaaa.
leandro just got me damn stressed.
i think tonight it'll be like.. level 101 grinding. haha
oh and i finished my tutorial :)yea baby!!!
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Friday, April 20, 2007
"i wish i were special. so fuckin special"
Thursday, April 19, 2007
swoondled

Sunday, April 15, 2007
BRAND NEW thankyou:)
Sunday, April 08, 2007
fresh of the racks!
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Friday, March 30, 2007
PASS THE MARIJUANA.
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
tell me

Bani
West Grand Boulevardand i think this is turning into some emomomoyokoOno blog.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
pretense.
i wanna stop feeling like saying I m y.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
live through this
Sunday, March 18, 2007
experimenting vulgariTs with nicholaschia.
a city for you
*help ""- says:
or maybe its a finger up monica's
monicahahahartemis says:
fuckyoulabitch.
*help ""- says:
HUG
monicahahahartemis says:
oy. no.
*help ""- says:
FANANABANANAS TO YOU
monicahahahartemis says:
piconini up yours loser.
Saturday, March 17, 2007
ramayalabangbang!
Photoshoot with Bani and westgrand in the morn had so much fun they're all such cudeys. Absolutely no airs about them 8)
denise and i decided many years downt the road when we're sick of our high flying jobs and we have too much money we'll just sack our company and set up a pub/musicafe and bum around all day organising gigs supporting good music doing what we love (m - sic) ETC. omg. i seriously love what im doing right now i wanna do it all my life!
dont cha wish your boyfriend was hot like him
hhaha uhuh!
Thursday, March 15, 2007
pure disdain.
but ive got no reason to be anymore so im gonna get my emotions fuckin right and go to slp and be proud of myself i held out till complexrev.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
EPIPHANINI.
thought about it..
popcorn and saliva .. cant be exothermic.
disgestive enzymes break down food --> breakage of bonds --> endothermic.
i think i was just.. imagining the heat. or maybe its just me. SSSSSSSIZZLIN. haahhahahhahahaahhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaHA.
- wanted to be ambidexterous
- wanted to fly
- felt kinda scared bout the same old shit. and some little new ones.
Monday, March 12, 2007
Blocksbollocks.

Wednesday, March 07, 2007
give me an hour
whitegrapes,blackgrapes,purplegrapes,redgrapes,rainbowgrapes,happygrapes,dancinggrapes.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
masquerade

Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Saturday, February 03, 2007
Thursday, January 25, 2007
WHO KIDNAPPED MY SANDMAN!



sometimes i wonder why im so unconditional
like i lost my senses or something.
but just saw sylvester's nick.. the best things in life are the ones you dont reason out.
anyway im too tired to do anything im gonna slp right NOW. its so dumb, not like ive been working extra hard or whatever. It's just that i've been dreaming too many elaborately crappy dreams.
stupid sleep thief i hope you die.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
supertight
Thursday, January 04, 2007
love like winter
8)
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
moni-moni-oh-so-breezy :)

Last
day
of
the
holidays
Monday, January 01, 2007
To the Left













The end of 06 and the beginning of my new year was weird, a little disappointing at one point, but skyhighawesome nonetheless.
then 1st jan started settling in
and i felt confused
angry
manipulated.
Dramatic.
bored.
sleepy.
But what's enough?
and when is it alright to be selfish.
You know what, i think bitches are happier.
But even if i had the conviction and courage to be one
I dont have the heart.
cant wait for dinner 8)
Thursday, December 28, 2006
detox.



ready to puke.. seriously
relativity.
Long time no see 8)
i realised i usually only blog when im feeling down, or really messed up... all poopoo stuff.
I like it when im too happy to blog.
okay let me get this out of my system.
This is gonna sound childish..but.. once in a while la.
today went for a dance prac
and there was someone that i got pretty negative vibes from
i guessed it was cos she was someone's good friend.
some super sweet person apparently.
we prolly lk like we're frm different ends of the suga spectrum
..people take sides naturally
and there's this unspoken hostility
i dont even have to do anything wrong.
keep telling myself dont be so sensitive, want everyone to like you for w h a t.
heh.. slowly.
and i gotta stop letting curiosity get the better of me cos im not an easily contented person. i hate the feeling that i dont have it good enough cos i DO.
and im just 17 ive got a whole life ahead of me i cant be jaded already!!!
tsk monica. you and you're disgusting sensitivity.. for the wrong things.
stupid waste of spiritual space.
some people have like no food orclean water or proper toilets okay!
okay im done with my emochanel dumpage. bath timeeeeeeeee 8) =) :)
Saturday, December 16, 2006
Monday, December 11, 2006
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
zuper zen
as tired as a bull
learning bout ISO. with higher ISO you can capture faster movements.kids, this picture was taken using low ISO. ISO stands for It's So Oily. like when you eat a harsh brown you can say I-S-O! supa cool.


celebrated kim's birthday today im so terrible at springing surprises. poor kimbo had to pretend she didnt know what was gonna happen and i pretended i didnt know she knew . so what happened happened and i ate alot of comfort food to.. comfort myself and i am so freakin tired right now but im waiting for someone's prom photos i really really wanna go to sleep but i cant seem to control my body THIS SUCKS. yesterday or isit yester yesterday i dont know i slept at 3 and woke up at 6 cos my cousins were around and i havent seen them in 5 years and i only got to spend one night with them and i wont see them for another * years and im not very happy I DONT WANNA STAY IN SINGAPORE ANYMORE. byebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebye
ohoh!!!! today i saw some sweet lines. so strangely poetic.
the first time i saw you, i loved you with a thousand hearts..
Aw.
the rest i forgot.
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Friday, December 01, 2006
Forever and Everer.
wont make this right
Thursday, November 30, 2006
poetry in motion.
In the beginning there was a song.harmonious melodious classicalous
ping ping pong
fing fang fong
then somebody
his hand so itchy
he push the button and OO!
BABY.
things got naughty.
soo wilson gunna git ay spanky frum zee mummy
everybuhday say yoyoyo wit me now c'mon!
yo (boomboom boomboom)
Yoyo(boomboom boomboom)
YOYOYO (boomboomboom shakalakaboom!)
things got naughty
(things got naughty)
wilson git a spanky
(wilson git a spanky)
hit it one mo time m' brudda.
i aint feelin da love enuff no
NO NO NO
whoa oo whoa yeeeeaaaa....
*tambourine solo*
:( i aint a rapper man.
okay ENOUGH goodnight.
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Me Leedle Brassiere.
wilsonwent out with cheresa and wilson today.
my hair was quite alright
birds were chirping flowers were blooming..
i was.
in the mood.
to annoy my brother beloved.
called him dumdum/dongdong all the way home.
sang every song/nursery rhyme i knew with dumdums and dongdongs.
got desperate.
told him bout the dumlephants and dongkeys in the zoo.
talked to him in a disgusting accent
but he wouldnt talk to me :(
told him that our house's in Dover.
and we've always lived in dover HELLO!?
got him a little confused:)
managed to get him so mad he headbutted me.
i got mad too
and so he ran the last 50 metres home.
away from me.
went out again
to centrepoint with mama
came home and
brotherbull became brotherstrawberryshortcake
"jiejie. you wanna slp now? let's go slp!:)))))<3<3<3"
"NO. close the door. you're wrecking my aircon." <3
Sunday, November 26, 2006
zhngmychia.blogspot.com

BF3 + NaF -->
a) 8(
b) 0-----
c) tsk.
damnit man! i cant stop procrastinating. i wanna leave singapore in P to the E to the A C E EXCLAMATIONMARK yo! ohgod. anyway everything's like half done.. i feel like such a ban tu er fei-errrrrrr. cannot! i wanna be a.. um. hahhaha. tu fei meng jing-er??
alright the truth of the matter is this entry is just some disgusting attempt at running away frm my chem ws. i wanna just quit and become a baker/rapper..like FEE FI FO FUM YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY YUM.. checkitout.*pose*
anyway, the texas chainsaw massacre with kimberly in very soon :) xXoOxo
and um, 3d nightmare before xmas with wilson even sooner.
and btw, i wanna be D to the E to the L I C I O U S..
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Friday, November 24, 2006
shutuplasongjun.

xiangting. being herself.
i hate feeling jealous
its like one of the most disgusting feelings
but how the hell do you curb it man
8(i need a bigger heart <_________________________________3
and i need to be contented with who i am.
OWELL!
ive always wanted to be able to write in beautiful prose
or just have a sudden surge of inspiration/emotion/WHATEVER and puke out a pretty poem
one day 8)
you know
i dont really like being 17
at 17 i feel my dreams are grounded..
my sensitivity heightened
my conviction wavered
my social skills a little fucked up
my eyes closed
and im not as nice towards my little brother anymore i dont know why.
but at 17 i
haha. i dont know.
ive got much to be thankful for still. gotta keep reminding myself!
that was not an attempt at being poetic btw.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
20th November 2005
yeah and i also waited for 4eva for someone to change..BORWING.
oh and i bumped into Fili after too yearzzzzz
also caught step up with cheresa and beautiful..
and almost got pangsehed by notsobeautifulanymore for her bf.19th November 2005
Hey Momma !Shake that thang!
i love this dress. i know abit auntie la but its SO CUTEEEE. and the price tag also very cute. only 80 bucks. Freak.
waiting for mum to finish trying her ahma clothes.

These shoes
are so gorgeous. but they like. cost more than the. dress. freak.
goodshoes say byebye to blisterS!
Saturday, November 18, 2006
dont think like a bitch, think like a cupcake.




miss you like crazyIf i could be anything in the world...
id be the eiffel tower.
or a musician. a drama teacher. the owner of a vineyard. ( the CEO of esplanade yeaaaahhhhhh!!!)
nothing radical, but still almost impossible.
All the talk bout taking risks, stepping out, living life to the fullest and what shits.
not like we dont want to
its just that circumstances stifle us damnit.
it makes me feel so resentful sometimes you know...
stupid burmese government, stupid cosmopolitan country, stupid elitist system, stupid myopic adults.
but i gotta remember i dont live life for myself man..
i cant smile if they're not happy.
and actually, my life's pretty good already why am i complaining! CONTENTMENT baby.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Saturday, November 11, 2006
make me mrs peterpan.
wouldnt it be nice if your nose were ice cream!
the case of the little broken car. HAHA

went to ikea to get some wine glasses for the fac outing and cheresa came along and we took the wrong bus and got onto a lousy cab and got drenched in the rain and MARC MALONE YOU SHOULD TREAT HER BETTER and i love the ice cream at ikea 8)
hmm. what else do i love.
- fruit juice. 10o% NO preservatives or colouring.
- Mint chocolates. the thin thin kind.
- sushi with family. and james.
- shiny legs.
- pleasant suprises
- cloudy days
- VANILLAAAAA!!! ooo yummy.. vanilla perfume, vanilla candles, vanilla lip balm. vanilla boyfriend.
8( i feel nostalgic reading my old freako blog. side track a little.. courtesy of 14 year old monica8)
"4)yong xian... shez such a bitch. but thats MISS Bitch to u.shez been my irritating lab partner, queen paranoia as my home econs sista, and the nervous lark in front of me during exams. u HAVE to love her. shez tt type of gurl hu keeps getting u to repeat the same jokes OVER and OVER again if she likes it. n she laffs realllllyy realllyy hard EVERYTIME..."
and now we dont even say hi. i rmb on valentines' day 2004 her letter was the only one which made me tear though 8)
hey cheresa! found this too! From me to your jello, with love. haha
"Oh! here're the 10 things u never knew u never knew bout monsieur jello.
1) yellow jello's actually the sticky stuff that slid off this old man called dominic mandini's throat. but no one's got the heart to tell him that. he thinks hez spermicide. get a life. spermicides r waaay cooler than u'll ever be ....
2) jello owes bobbAy 52 bucks. he used it to buy antennaes. he sez it makes him feel smarter. and he also told me not to tell anyone that he wiggles the antennaes evry nite hoping the tooth fairy would come visit him. he told bobbAy not to tell anyone. so im not gonna tell u.
3) Jello picks his ears for a living. the whole " i help out at the club for needy gigolos" story is a hoax.
..."
OO! and i found this too.
in 2003. here are the 6 things i said id do if i had 20 million bucks.
set up a mini animation company. for wat i dont noe
find myself a lil hut in the middle of a soooooper nice beach with yummy lkin water...and row my boat to get to schl evrydae. and just incase i get tired. id get a hunky slave to row my boat for me.
set up my own chocolate factory where they manufacuture exclusive spongebobsquarepants chocolate.
pay aaron carter to feed me my spongebobsquarepants chocolates.
buy my mom all the diamonds she wants.
get my dad MORE spongebobsquarepants and scoobydoo boxers.
buy half the shopping mall with a personal shopping bag carryin slave.
donate the rest of the money to deprived kids in 3rd world countries.
p/s..my slaves gotta be dipped in vanilla every morning."
I dont want a mini animation company and aaron carter anymore though. and i cant believe ive loved spongebob since 4EVA! he's my Rambo.
okay another one.. i was so crappppppppppppppE! i almost forgot.
Prices:24$ for a lifetime of jello-sults. how cool is that?anti-bobbAy members hu have realized the folly of their ways shall be taken under my wing n i, Reverend master IN, shall guide them on their road to nirvana, where they shall live in a tree. Only by living in a tree can one seek what one is seeking.
oh god.
i think i sounded like a totally different person. now i think nirvana can only be attained by meditating and starving yourself to death.
"i wish bush gave saddam tons of ecstasy, took some himself, drowned together in a room filled with bootylicious babes and partied all nite. then maybe they'd be great pals. WTF!!! nah. i just hope i finish this darn assignment well."
AWwwwww.and i found this too 8)
todae sumthing ultra sweet happened. i helped my brother and his buddy, huz also my cousin(different one) pass the levels in that dumbass game CRASH BANDICOOT. YYYYYYYEEEEEEEEHHHHHAAARRRR!!!! then they were soooo happy. my cousin was like. "WAAAHHHH!!!! jie jie swangyee ur sooo cool." and my bro was like "yea man!!! i love u jie jie!!!" which was soooper sweet coz my brother is the 2nd shyest wen i cums to saying he loves sumone. im the 1st. i think.anywae....yeah..so tt was sweet.but as for wat my kuz said, i cant trust him. hez always suckin up to me.( in that innocent way) one time i just got up from bed, my hair was wwwaaaayyy waaayy waaayyy messier than usual and i lked like sum sick carrot stick. but then tt kuz(gerald) was like " waaahhhhh!!!! u look sooo pretty jie jie swangyee." then im like" UMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM......." but i liked it. hehehehehehehehehehe. "
ono.. this wasnt meant to be so lONGG. goodnight.
Friday, November 10, 2006
06S63 class shallot.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Monday, November 06, 2006
HOBNOBS
Sunday, November 05, 2006
seriously!
Yesterday was a day out on Singapore's lousy beach with my classmates. But lousy beach with lovely people makes it more than okay. A foot massage from pamela, confessions from weiqin, touch with lix, tummy slapping with stelly, voyeuring the boylies and im too lazy to list. we should do this more often 8)
and yesterday i found out what a heartache feels like.
cute.
But then i realised id been deluded bout how much this meant to him. so yesterday's yesterday, and today's
swimming. steaming. islandcreamerying. hardriving.
Looking forward to:
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Stolen
Pull up it’s own stakes
And catch the last weekend
Of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
Another sun soaked season fades away
Watch you spin around
In your highest heels
You are the best one
Of the best ones
And we
All
Look
Like
We
Feel
- Dashboard Confessionals
Goodnight monica8)
Thursday, November 02, 2006
17
Displaced
& Powerless
Never thought i could feel like this
and it sucks.
i wish you could read my mind cos i cant find the words.
Okay im off for sushi!
Sunday, October 29, 2006
H A P P Y N E S S

Getting wasted after promos8)
8( you know i hated the last day of school. i was like trying really hard to keep away thoughts of time passing so quickly and all the good times and how we're all growing up like beansprouts. TOO FAST DAMNIT.
very painful. but nonetheless i love 2006.. to the maximum 8)
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Sunday, October 22, 2006
this thing
You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
in Sandman: The Kindly Ones by Neil Gaiman
cute.
Friday, October 20, 2006
whats to dos!
but bor-ing is nice actually. nicer than staring at lecture notes and eating uneccessary chocolate and diffusing into the chair and showing no regard for the moisture of my skin.
monica, please dont forget to:
- watch memoirsofageisha/thedevil wears prada with kimkini.
- (write a letter to my dad telling him to hearts my mum more/better/more SHEESH. men.)
- bake a visually appealing cheesecake.
- do sit ups everyDAMNITday.
- hang out with my broster. like. um.. ice cream/nachos outing or something.
- go to that discovery camp thing, torture some kids, and contribute a maiden 200 bucks to my megayachtfund YO!
- finish reading Middlesex (monica, u must.)
- stop talking bout myself as a third party its disgusting.
- study for my theoryexam 8(
- practise singing lying down 8(
- try to make torque fun8)
- stop slacking off on the confectionary fair OR ELSE.
- pls dont eat me. i love you. HAHA.
- georgie peorgie pudding and pie
- kissed the girls and made them cry
- when the boys came out to play
- georgie peorgie ran away
- HOWCOME NO MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMORE!
classchalet
artemis night
OCIP cambodia
watch kimkini carol
burma
Sunday, October 15, 2006
Thursday, October 12, 2006
stupidpicturewontuploadf k.
why the hell do i care so much.
ive got enough people in my life who love me.
bye.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
lousy cake shop.
messing
with
my
ahh. hahaha barely living dont know why im laughing. maybe im happy but i just dont know it.
and i miss her her and her and the simple life.
talking to myself is therapeutic.
ithink
i
dont
care.
Monday, September 18, 2006
mega yacht
Thursday, September 07, 2006
G IBBER ISH
Anyway, the past few days didnt taste so good. but on the bright side it made the sweet taste sweeter. and im really proud to say the #1 yummygummy was my best friend kimberly 8) she's kinda like family. in fact, very. the kind i take for granted... get a litte bored of.. get a little boring around... and then shit happens and she picks my stars up for me 8)
i cant really rmb my new year resolutions. i think the two main ones were to live with no regrets, and be sincere. regrets wise, i dont know man... its really tough.. if i werent me, id tell everyone i love i love them. Its so ironic. the people i say il0vey0u the least to are the people i love most.
sincerity.. i dont think ive let myself down. It hurts me when people have doubts bout my sincerity. ugh but what the heck. i should stop being so hypersensitive or i'll pop one day. oh but i do wonder! what if you dont really like a person but you still try to be friendly towards her (without bitching duh). make the usual small talk... play around and laugh a little. is that insincere? maybe its unclassifiable.
and why the hell do . nvm. i dont know how to put this down.
that day someone asked me to tell her more bout myself. and i was stumped. giving her a short description of myself felt inadequate. not like i wanted to giveher some commonwealth essay. so i threw her a few adjectives and said in exasperation "why you doing this to me! tell me more bout YOU." haha problem solved.
In retrospect, caring so much what others think is stupid. people will eventually come to see those dimensions of you. maybe not all.. just those who care. But they're the only people who really matter anyway.
okay this is all trash talk. i cant stop not caring bout what other people think.
ohoh and today, i asked myself, "monica, where's the logic in unconditionally loving a friend?"
Thursday, July 20, 2006
redemption
okay out with the truth... i was just hopin to redeem myself with a new blog. i went back to my old blog and ew. i cant believe how excited and happy i sound! i mean its a good thing.. those younger days.. but im just embarrassed. i guess ive succumbed to societal pressures...suppress quirkiness cos it makes me look too 'keen' and instead, try really hard to look like i dont try so hard..like im just Effortlessly stylish. bullshit.
does a crazyhappyverycrazyhyperactive person make you think of a fat pimple?
sometimes.










My bloodsweat-pie





Our king blessing partyhouseONE before heading off to partyhouseTWO.



and here's to a damn suck birthday.















moni, grandpapa, shopowner's daughter (her dad brings in all the vintage dresses from japan how funky cant stand it!), and miss neo.
home time. 





















































