Riding the highs

yo.

fadzri sir
(or more fondly known as.. SLAAASSSHH >=(

wilson does his homework

while i eat my cake (:

white triple-fat chocolate macadamia

madeinsingapore.savewater.madeinsingapore.

blue for artemis
H for Haha

This is what henry park's been teaching my brother

The apprentice.

shit we're hot.

bet you couldnt tell we were chinesedancing

The justice league

Our first take! dont know why im so thrilled bout jumping pics.

enough.

i feel so happy sia. and shit sia. i think i just got addicted to a word 3 hrs ago. while doing thermo i was talking to myself pretending to be a mud and i dont know how sia came out sia. my thought bubbles also all end with sia right now SIA.

ohoh!!! denise said she talked to the guy frm bnj's at dempsey there and he said we can do an acoustic set at the end of the year YAHOO! hahahha.

motivation to mug.

search party

yahoo my tingalingapaprikas check it out i stayed awake in most of my tutorials this week!

pretty bad hairdays, decent concentration and no 3hr naps = a pretty good week!

Y P P A H :)

AND i found a university i want to go to!! and i realised i really like talking to yuxiang! pre post tuition. haha.

i dont want to stay in singapore anymore, i'll prolly get more jaded as the years pass.

SO YEAH cant wait! i really hope yummy and i make it there.. get some Standford sun, smell some standford flowers, eat some standford burgers, pile on some standford fat. (::

and best yets, my gut feeling came true this week! National day tickets just fell onto my lap AGAIN. i dont even have to ask la. actually its just the preview. but sama ya! to think i even thought of entering that 'mybestfriendandi' contest to try to win tickets. thank you fadzri i bubbled some smiles through the air molecules pass the flyover under the papaya tree i hope you felt them!

(: and tooday before some talk i went up to the toppest level of the LT block to stone alone. id always hated the colours in hwach and how everything seems so dated. I didnt even think it was like charmingly vintage you know. the place seemed... stuck in purgatory? dont know how to say la. but today hwach felt very different, like a night in march. As i looked up at the huge stained windows, the mismatched brownredyellowandblue, i couldnt help but feel it was all so beautiful. I started picturing secrets crouching in corners, people appearing... disappearing, yet forever there, doing the same things over and over. everything turns into a photograph, the photograph turns grey. im looking at the photograph, wishing i were there, then putting it away.

maybe it was a a little too quiet and nostalgia was hitting me a little too early. aiyo i think im weird. but i was really feeling the place man!so hey.

Peculiar Chris

every sunday On MrTeo @ Noble House

weixing lkin all glamour glamour


Mr Teo's rockstar undies. sexy inside out yo.


Mr teo, our personal photographer

each person got a shot. how nice right!

Here's sj and cx basking in the limelight

Artemis Activity I/Cs 06,07

daddy's watching (:

pre post play talk

at the computer now

haha yes. narc.

Section 377A (outrages on decency) states that:

Any male person who, in public or private, commits, or abets the commission of, or procures or attempts to procure the commission by any male person of, any act of goss indecency with another male person, shall be punished with imprisonment for a term which may extend to 2 years.

welcome to singapore.

I watched this amazing amazing play today at the library drama centre. Happy endings by Alfian Sa'at. It's a play about homosexuals and what it means for a society to come of age.

"How do we know love? When does the personal become political? What is at stake and what is our responsibility? when happiness is so rare, what can or should we do to protect it?"

- Ivan Heng, artistic director (he lks like a very adorable person!)

Many homosexuals leave Singapore for a country where they can 'come out', have a family of their own, have children to outlive them, basically, go to somewhere they can be true to themselves and still be treated with respect. and then there are those who choose to become someone else, learn to love a woman, convinced that that's the only way they'll ever be accepted.

Self denial yes, but it's an easier option than pursuing forbidden love. this whole idea of forbidden love just irritates me. gay community:forbiddenbylaw love. Mainstream community, forbiddenbywtf love. We dont know what we've got man.

There was this character in the play, kenneth. Left his bf, got married, had kids, divorced, and came back to spore to give talks on how he managed to become straight

"when being gay doesnt make you happy"

The guy was still very much in love with his ex bf though.

Seemed liked he was the audience of his own talks, the person he needed to convince.

sad :(

Anw, like Mrs ang said, "pple are very stupid la. talking about what..better to have loved and lost. But if you're a person who believes in the experience then i guess it's true."

Well i guess for a gay in singapore, who you can love is governed by the law. And going through the experience of heartache again and again must be lethal.

..so there are those who leave home, those who try to change, and those who give up on love altogether.

You take this business of homosexuality. It raises tempers all over the world, and even in America. If in fact it is true - and i have asked doctors this - that you are genetically born a homosexual because that's the nature of the genetic random transmission of genes, you can't help it. So wjhy should we criinalise it?... It's a genetic variation. So waht do we do? I think we pragmatically adjust, carry our people. Don't upset them and suddenly upset their sense of propriety and right and wrong... So you have to take a practical, pragmatic approach to what i see is an inevitable force of time and circumstance.

- 21 April 2007 - Minister Mentor Lee Kuan Yew speaking at a wkend meeting with the youth wing of the PAP

"They tell me and anyway it is probably half-true that homosexuals ar creative writers, dancers, etc. If we want creative people, then we got to put up with their idiosyncrasies so long as they don't infect the heartland... We are not promoters of it (homosexuality) and we are not going to allow Singapore to become the vanguard of Southeast Asia."

- 24th April 2007 - Minister Mentor Lee Kan Yew speakeing at the Reuters Newsmaker event

im confused. haha. no way i could run my own little country.

...

After all the turmoil, it's back to the beach

sky

holding hands..

The space between their palms is theirs.

Then somebody walks pass

and they let go.

But that moment, no matter how fleeting, was happiness.

joyful, moving, familar, and very real.

It's reallyREALLY worth catching, 40 bucks for a good seat. ohoh! Ian Mckellen aka magneto aka king Lear sat infront of us today. Charmaine (han) was like "i brought a camera i brought a camera i want to TOUCH HIM!!!"

haha yeah. go watch. I promise you laughter, emancipation, and for the inloves/inloved, tears for every emotion (:

In Transit

traumatic week
one connection
two.
schl food sucks
where im at
the only way's up.
harry potter was nice
and apparently onlyi think so
no nano. hate music for now..today.
checked out the website
looks pretty good
a change would be very nice

& finally,
a little more control (:

"we're out of bad weeks, howd you like a gd week instead(:"

yea why not

GUCCINI! i heard bout yp's dream please take care alright!

we wanna go over to nz after As but dont know how yet la.

and come come to singapore super super soon pls.

just saw your graffiti in hwach the other day.

leaving a legacy huh. hahha

miss you (:

shithead.

bah.

ba black sheep.

ah stressed like fack.

and i read this magazaine article by this woman bout how she got so desperate for her husband and his attention and 'how it used to be' that she let herself pay him for sex.

" only if you pay me for it.."

sounded casual but he wasnt kidding.

the morning after he reminded her to transfer the money into his account.

2 mths of loveless sex, faked orgasms and quite a sum of money later,

he bought his mistress a diamond ring.

sweet.

i feel like slapping him la.

hey mama. we all go to hell.

all week

it's that time of the year again.

im feeling very very boring.

i even bore myself.

WEI SHE ME LIKE THIS :(

& i feel like asking dear neighbour to take me for a ride around, but its like exploitation.

The devil on my left's screaming "Hey! Bitch it up!" though..

how how

how.

listen to hum hallelujah by fallout boy!

it's amazing.but i dont know what the hell that guy's singing his pronunciation's damn TSK. I just know it makes me feel so omg-my-eyes-are-open-again, my heart's doing somersaults, and i just wanna run! haha.. cause' things arent all going the way i want it to, but its not too bad.. better than okay.. perfect in its own imperfect way (: haha. really! i dont know how to describe it, i just know it's MY FAVOURITE RUSH.

and it's kinda sweet.. if you dont know what he's saying. All you hear's the good stuff:

I could write it better than you ever felt it
So hum hallelujah
Just off the key of reason
I thought I loved you
It was just how you looked in the light
A teenage vow in a parking lot
Til tonight do us part
I sing the blues And swallow them too

but it was just how you lked in the light.. haha. whyd they have to spoil it like that!

omg i love it when it rains

...stood at my window
closed my eyes
breathed in,
out
open...
and for a moment i felt so overwhelmed
like i was gonna crumble, fall and disappear.

evanescence

i hope it's pouring when i wake up tmr morning (:

X sushi.

did you know that roald dahl's favourite colour was yellow

(:

and that he had his friend build him a little white cottage with a yellow door.

He wrote in that cottage, never dusted the place, and never let anyone in.

also, roald dahl meant for James and the Giant Peach to be called James and the Giant Cherry.

offstage

It rained and the tank filled up again today.I read kim's letter, and found a lid to cover it this time so no more water gets in. It'll take let's say... a mth more - showers, baths, dishes, laundry, and the tank will run dry.

because what is this.. a showcase?
my sadistic indulgence?

monica dont be stupid.
There's so much so much more..

& on this just-another wednesday evening,
it's going to be extra special
super sweet
and very real.


'cause i'll be jumping right in

and falling to the beginning (:

i'll be electric soon with all that flux. HOT.

This afternoon was tough.

so i wrote a song, called "sir, you're sitting on my flowers".

ha. Might as well.

Anw cant wait to work something out with denise again tmr(:

and i found this girl's blog, i think she's very like me. Just that she takes the path of least resistance..but I think the path of least resistence is painful.so im fighting.

well id like to be her friend.. i think we could reallly hit it off. unless we're... circumstanced of course.

hahah. dont bother to comprehend.

Great uncertaintyty on Chua Planet

postuitionwyuxiang

psychedelica sinisterita paprika vanillala MONICA


Felt a little :( today so i tried to sleep.
ive been sleeping tola tola yesterday and today

haha

dont know if it's cos im 1)tired
2)Lazy 3)sick of thinking

but after i woke up i was :) again. okay more like.. :/

then i told myself "get a grip!! stop being such a disgusting sloth.", so i announced to my family
"IM GONNA STUDY PROPERLY NOW >=[ "
& i did, and felt :)er.


AND i tend to think alot when im studying. Not thinkmaththink kinda think. more like thinkcrapthink kinda think. NOT gd.
but today was different, thoughtcrapthoughts and suddenly kachingching!
..slight emancipation.


yahoo!