PASS THE MARIJUANA.

The past few days havent been so good. crazy insidemoodswings.i think cos everything's a mess with toto not around. i feel kinda lost actually.. i think idjust die if she chose to go back to her village forever and become a nun.but its kinda hard for me to tell her i love her (and vice versa) so we'll just.. hahha, secretly love each other till the end i guess? yeah!

and ive been surviving on random sparks of brilliance throughout my day. but things are getting better definitely 8) just found kimberly's 1st Jan letter to me and i couldnt stop smiling! everything was just felt simple and nice again for a moment. ..ended up stoning at a spot for like a minute thinking bout the safest safest SAFEST place to keep the letter.couldnt think of one though:( so i just put the letter on my dressing table and put a calculator on it.

and today she told me how all my entries seem to be an.. outburst of how much---. And frankly i feel kinda embarrassed..haha..MONICA, THIS HAS GOT TO STOP >=[

tell me

Bani

West Grand Boulevard

There doesnt seem to be any choice that's right.
and i think this is turning into some emomomoyokoOno blog.

today wilson asked me what i wanted for my birthday. he wants art and craft stuff. and a candy dispenser. and "one small toy".. abt this big ( ) haha. i told him i wanted vanilla perfume but he said "no. something else my budget is 15$." i ended up sitting by the pool with my bro brainstorming on what he should get me.. cant believe i dont have any big desire for anything. and 15$ can't buy somepeople back so.. :). he asked me if i liked minnie mouse or supermario and i told him "wilson im a big girl now." so he said he'd write me a song (doubt it though.).. and i couldnt help but wonder

if we feel the same

pretense.

Went to tj idol with cheresa. Love her all over 8). maybe she's not so chatty anymore but its okay cos at least now she's so much more like the old old cheresa. "HELLO CHESA!" and why do girls like to screw up their faces in photos. frankly i think its kinda cheesy. but its so hard when you've got no one to hold the cam for you and your hand's only THAT LONG. i think i'll be cheesy 4EVa.

i feel so scared bout how things are gonna work out. everything feels like its at the THRESHOLD.. it's like standing at the edge of the world.. but less adrenaline. (and bigger eyebags)

and its weird how despite my mind being so packed, i still have space for shittyweewee things that knot me up inside a little, still.

so go away you stupid feeling..

i wanna stop feeling like saying I m y.

live through this

Taking extra time to tidy up your money's home sends a message of respect out to the universe. If you treat money like garbage, it won't want to come and live with you.

hhahahahah. my horoscope for today. i like. got talk bout the UNIVERSE.. oo.

(andhey!carrotcolours :)

experimenting vulgariTs with nicholaschia.

*help ""- says:
a city for you

*help ""- says:
or maybe its a finger up monica's

monicahahahartemis says:
fuckyoulabitch.

*help ""- says:
HUG

monicahahahartemis says:
oy. no.

*help ""- says:
FANANABANANAS TO YOU

monicahahahartemis says:
piconini up yours loser.

TSK.

ramayalabangbang!

Super happy today. in the deepinmyheart yipee kinda way.

Photoshoot with Bani and westgrand in the morn had so much fun they're all such cudeys. Absolutely no airs about them 8)

denise and i decided many years downt the road when we're sick of our high flying jobs and we have too much money we'll just sack our company and set up a pub/musicafe and bum around all day organising gigs supporting good music doing what we love (m - sic) ETC. omg. i seriously love what im doing right now i wanna do it all my life!


dont cha wish your boyfriend was hot like him

hhaha uhuh!

pure disdain.

ohhmygoodness im boiling inside.

but ive got no reason to be anymore so im gonna get my emotions fuckin right and go to slp and be proud of myself i held out till complexrev.

french connection

i feel so lazy i wanna cry :(

seriouslyyyyyyY@%*@)#*%@)

EPIPHANINI.

sweet:)))

thought about it..

popcorn and saliva .. cant be exothermic.
disgestive enzymes break down food --> breakage of bonds --> endothermic.

i think i was just.. imagining the heat. or maybe its just me. SSSSSSSIZZLIN. haahhahahhahahaahhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaHA.

today I:

• wanted to be ambidexterous
• wanted to fly
• felt kinda scared bout the same old shit. and some little new ones.

Blocksbollocks.

im super sleepy but my hair's still wet and i fell aslp on the bus missed my stop and had to cab home at like 12 05 so my taxi fare was super cheap...seriously, my life is too exciting. I kinda even thought to myself i never wanna leave my house again cos i hate the hassle of making my way home 8(

(anyway why am i blogging more frequently? cos im feeling weird inside and i need some form of outlet to . talk. trash. without annoying anyone<321)

okay lets get to the point:

today i had 3ree paus. and i suspect the specific heat capacity of paus are relatively low. my pau came out from that dismsum basket and it was totally chillin out in no time yo!

i also had a bag of popcorn. and i think reactions between salivary amylase and popcorn particles are exothermic.

totallyserious.

totally 4AsforAs.

give me an hour

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, irritating.

whitegrapes,blackgrapes,purplegrapes,redgrapes,rainbowgrapes,happygrapes,dancinggrapes.

shmack zhat.

TOM YUM. yumyum.

(awwwwww:)))) )

anw, woke up shut down my senses total flop but whatever.let you go and tried to smile.

and till it all comes naturally, im not ready for the memories.

last emo entry EVVVVVVVVVVER yo!

masquerade

didnt think that itd be the last time id ever hold your hand.

or tell you i love you.

i think im alright. but the tears keep flowing..guess its perfectly natural.

find myself wishing i'll find you downstairs tmr, saying we'll try again.

but what's the point in making choices you secretly wish to turn back on.

...my nose is terribly blocked and i cant sleep right now 8( but that's okay. cos time will dry these tears and i'll be happy, truly, every day, again. :)